oh i haven updated for ten days!haha but life is still the same larh..

woah, my heart sank like dunno till basement wad when i saw and read that whole blog, it hurts, really, worst than u stabbing me.seriously. i dropped tears while reading that, nvm i know how u feel, cos i feel that too. that person was special to u while u were special to me, nvm i'll be okay.

anw, went vivo today to beg pple for receipts to exchange for ahzi's mini concert on fri during vivo's opening ceremony, cos u gotta spend 300 and above in order to exchange for tt, it was fun standing in front of giant supermart to aim at pple and asking them for reciepts, well there are kind pple ard and most imptly rich pple who spends 467 bucks in giant in a SINGLE reciept. WOW

i'll look forward to friday nite! with lightsticks, LED boards and sparklers, i'm gonna make her concert the most romantic and nicest she has even seen in any of her outdoor performance:))

then kster after tt cos we were bored, i went mad, i hope the videos would turn out fine, no unglam actions of me pls, and i got alot of unglam pics inside queen's cam whn we were at carl's junior,oh no.

some of u are good frens,but unforutnately, we belong to two different worlds cos i walk the straight road while u guys take the shortcuts and is always armed with daggers to stab on pple's back
basically,you're black while i'm white, i do things in front of others, while u do it behind

oh ya i'm gonna get real busy this time round, with mid sem round the corner and chioning projs, and on top of that, i got two jobs, one at dl during wknds and one at ice cream during wkdays, so do pray tt i can survive okay! i juz need those money seriously:(

i feel alot stronger when you're beside me

jerr-
10:00 PM

okays i have been like MIA in sch for two days already and i am gonna get damn screwed with all my schwork. ha, think my GPA will drop from 3.33 to 2.22 perhaps if this goes on till dunno when.

have been feeling not very good these days, the doc says cos its cause of stress, my BP is lower, my body is too tired and he has given me soon pills to help me slp and not think so much. haha the pills are killer man, it made me slpt from 11pm to like 2 pm the nxt day feeling so weak and blur.

actually i didnt noe i was so stress, well i dun feel any, i juz felt depressed. ha, over my poor econs, my poor socio and cmi de jap. for other subs, i'm still okay i hope! *fingers crossed* sch has been real tiring for me i think, plus all the XYZ things that has been piling up on me.. it juz all comes tog like a bomb, sinking me down soon.

other probs are not really able to say it here, well its pte matters which i think shld be kept to my heart and bear it alone or rather, with the pple that are facing the same probs as me. its getting worst, really, the last thing ever i wanna be bothered abt is money and family. oh wells.

nth much has happen, it time to pull up my socks for all my subs, mid sem test is in a month's time, i cant stop thinking abt it, cos i felt that i studied nth for the past month, or rather, nth went into my mind for the past month.

no yanzi matters for me to fret over is good, no power and politics happening right now, at least thats better. its not good to be a good fren when u heard two sides of stories from all your frens who are supposed to be a clique. politics and way of handling things again, guess thats wad make me tired too.

"We look forward, sometimes we stay awhile on the spot to enjoy the scenery. But the world doesn't wait for us. So we have to keep going." - ahzi
its time to move forward and keep going

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jerr-
3:12 PM

wah, ms goh tagged me.. haha! thks for ya gummie bears! it gives me sore throats too =(

life has been not good these few days or rather for the past week, haven been feeling well at all, i've been getting gastrics and gastric flu, giddy spells, sore throat and worst of all... ^&*(^&*()_ migraine.. sucks big time.

gastric flu sucks too, it makes me bloated and feels like vomiting and burping everytime, the kar kar feeling will wake me up from my slp, then i cant slp anymore. lack of sleep causes my dumb migraine. i dun eat tt much now, sometimes i dun even eat anyth except for dinner cos i dun have the appetite to.

grrr, why not juz let me be severely sick for a few days then ?better than draggin on for like one week, sucks man. i dun even have the mood to go sch cos migraine will start whenever i think of sth or concentrate on lecs or boring tutorials. i was suffering like hell during ystd's econ's tutorial, tts why i was EXCEPTIONALLY quiet..hahhaha

when jiamin doesnt eat= she has gastrics
when jiamin doesnt talk or make noise= she's havin migraine
when jiamin doesnt talk and eat= she is not jiamin

hahah!
when jiamin ignores u and doesnt talk to u the way before = she is hurt by u
when jiamin talks and eats alot = she is well already!


hahaha this is so fun, i shall think of sentences like those nxt time.
when jiamin is bored= she plays with pens

okay the end, i cant think anymore, i fainting already.. ewww takkiare everyone!

oh iLOVEmyma, she rocks!:DDDD

jerr-
11:28 PM

oh yea! i'm back to updating my poor blog again.. haha i see a lil cobwebs:) THIS IS A VERY LONG ENTRY!!!

these few days has been alright i guess, last week was juz ahzi and more ahzi. well after gcma, i realise frenships are soooo impt, it doesnt matter if ahzi knows me or wad, wad matters most is that i have good and close frens who will stand by me no matter wad. ahzi is juz an idol to me, yes she may love us as much as we love her, but she cant be our fren, its impossible.

selfishness is a broad word, u can interpret it as a good thing or a bad thing, it depends on yourself. to let your own selfishness break up a frenship, i think its not worth it, juz because of your own wans and selfishess, u would rather break up a frenship that is built over years and we have been through alot, doesnt that matter to u? its juz ahzi and more ahzi rather frens in the end, u selfish creep.

i chose not be selfish and irritating, if i chose to, u guys wun have a place to stand in rc that day. who are the freeking pple who stayed over juz to get a good place and look after all of your belongings when u all were waiting for ahzi durin her rehersals, and who the bloody hell went to leave the rocher bouquet on the floor and not looking after it?? ITS OUR PRECIOUS BOUQUET CAN, mayb u wun feel that way cos u didnt do it at all. sucks

juz becos of the bloody bouquet, i didnt get to see ahzi at all whn she waved to me in the van whn she left, cos i was concentrating on picking it up and making in look good whn ahzi juz waved at me and i didnt realise at all. and wad the shit hell, do u think u have the rights to say that u stood at the red carpet for dunno %^(*& hours and u are so tired? pls, who are the lugi ones? we stayed over and we werent in front! we were at the back holding on to things and we didnt complain at all, wad rights do u have to complain?

me,eve,kw,amanda,adeline and shihui didnt see the rc at all cos all of u were in front and blocking! and guess wad, me eve and kw stayed over! and we werent in front, its not abt being in front or not, if i wan to make things diff, i would have asked all of u to be behind already, forget abt taking pics or wad, i dun care, first come first serve, but we didnt. cos we didnt wan anyth bad to happen, and we wan queen to pass the bouquet to ahzi. SHUDDUP FREAKS.

okay i'm reacting like this cos i saw how other wrote abt gcma rc, how tired they are, how suay they are for not being able to see ahzi, WAD ABT US? think with your head, not your ass.

"Think before you say anything, because if you don't, it usually comes out wrong and unintentional. We wouldn't want that would we?No games. No politics. No mulling over what's lost or gained. We look forward, sometimes we stay awhile on the spot to enjoy the scenery. But the world doesn't wait for us. So we have to keep going." - ahzi

not that i dun love ahzi anymore, its juz that i think the frenships created in the fc is very precious, i treasure them alot. but i still love ahzi ya!!! juz that i wun hurt my frens juz because i wan to get close to ahzi.

ahzi is still as cute as ever, she gave us 3 flying kisses without us asking for it, wahah see!! she is loving us more and more after everyday. wahaha..

gcma nite was fun, from tonning overnite and getting bitten by those bloody mosquitoes, to knowing joey fc, to crying during rc cos if the tics to the running across from one end to another end of the red carpet, climbing up the drain without thinking of any consequences juz to pass ahzi the rocher bouquet, to holding hands tightly and holding on to each other when they annouce the winners, to laughing at my ma whn she was searching for me, to hand signalling to ahzi and seeing her awkward expressions were juz fond memories i had tog with the fc, or rather tog with queen,eve, kor, kw and zy:)

these few days were filled with tears and realisations, i've grown up abit after so many things happened. we'll be meeting up soon i guess after queen's exams, cos kor still has got the voucher! and i told him i wanna use it already!=D eating is my forte!I

both kor and i think that my tutor is very funny and cute.. wahaha..after that funny day and those convers, kor concluded again that she does not look like a lec at all!!! THATS YOU! MS GOH ,IF U HAPPEN TO READ THIS!hahaha

i seem happy now but sometimes my mood juz changes to dunno wad, ha, dun bring me up high for a while and throw me down to the bottom the nxt while, it hurts even more badly.




both of us are just too foolish; i duwan to regret and i hope u duwan too.

jerr-
3:44 PM